My book, The Moment, is available from Splice.

‘The Moment is the journal of a profound and moving endeavour: the attempt to renew a faith in life through the act of writing. Reflecting on everyday life in the Norfolk countryside as well as some of the richest literary, philosophical and theological ideas of the past couple of centuries, its narrator seeks to work through the legacy of his past by opening himself to the unknown and perhaps to the eternal. Life, Holm Jensen shows in his poised, lapidary prose, is best experienced as a gift, but one that must be received in the right way – by living and thinking beside the thought of luminaries old and new. This is a wisdom book, hushed and intimate, that will repay close contemplation.’

— Lars Iyer

Money, money money

Eternity has the sharpest eye for, and the most developed understanding of, mercifulness but has no understanding at all about money, any more than eternity is in a financial predicament or has, according to the Word, the slightest use for money. Yes, this is both a laughing and a crying matter. It would undeniably be a superb invention by laughter to imagine eternity in a financial predicament—ah, but then let us weep a little because temporality has so completely forgotten eternity and forgotten that from the eternal point of view money is less than nothing! Alas, many are of the opinion that the eternal is a delusion and that money is reality, whereas in the understanding of eternity and of truth money is a delusion!

Think of eternity in whatever way you want to; only admit that many of the temporal things you have seen in temporality you wished to find again in eternity, that you wished to see the trees and the flowers and the stars again, to hear the singing of birds and the murmuring of the brook again—but could it ever occur to you that there would be money in eternity? No, then the kingdom of heaven itself would again become a land of misery, and therefore this cannot possibly occur to you, just as it cannot possibly occur to someone who believes money is reality that there is an eternity. Of all the things you have seen, there is nothing of which you can be so sure that it will never enter heaven as money. On the other hand, there is nothing of which heaven is so sure as mercifulness. So you see that mercifulness is infinitely unrelated to money.

Yet money, money, money! That foreign prince is supposed to have said as he turned his back on mighty Rome, “Here lies a city for sale and only awaits a buyer.” Ah, how often might not one have been tempted despondently to turn one’s back on all existence and say, “Here lies a world for sale and only awaits a buyer”—provided one does not want to say that the devil has already bought it!

What is the earnestness of life? If you have in truth put this earnest question to yourself, then recall how you answered it, or let me remind you how you answered it. Earnestness is a person’s God-relationship. Wherever the thought of God accompanies what a person does, thinks, and says, earnestness is present; in that there is earnestness. But money is the world’s god; therefore the world thinks that everything that involves money or is connected to money is earnestness.

Behold that noble, simple, wise man of old; he would not take money for his instruction, and the Apostle Paul preferred to work with his own hands rather than defile the Gospel and debase his apostolic service and falsify the proclamation of the Word by taking money for it. What does the world judge of such things? Well, let us not fatuously ask what the world judges of that noble, simple man and the sainted apostle, inasmuch as the world has now learned by rote to eulogize them. But suppose someone today at this moment would do as those two did, what is the judgment of his contemporaries? They judge that this is eccentricity, that this is an exaggeration; they judge that such a person “lacks earnestness.”

To make money is earnestness; to make much money, even if it were by selling human beings, this is earnestness. To make a lot of money by contemptible slander—this is earnestness. To proclaim some truth—provided one also makes much money (it does not depend on its being true but on one’s making money)—this is earnestness. Money, money—this is earnestness. This is how we are brought up; from earliest childhood we are disciplined in the ungodly worship of money.

— Kierkegaard, Works of Love, VII. “Mercifulness, a Work of Love Even If It Can Give Nothing and Is Able to Do Nothing” (tr. Hong & Hong)

A review of The Moment.

Power of prayer on the soul. If one believes one will receive, the very fact of asking is an act. So the words themselves are acts. That is why they are hard to speak.

— Weil, First and Last Notebooks (tr. Rees)

The Trap: A Conspiracy Theory

Imagine it was all a trap. Right from the beginning.

The project: to create a living being. An artificial person. A new kind of intelligence.

To replicate the human mind, but take it further. To replicate the human body, but without the flaws that God or Nature had included, or let go unmended.

The project: to create a god.

And thus to become one.

Imagine that this project had been going on for decades, centuries, millennia. Occultists had been dedicated to it for a very long time, in quiet glades and secret temples. More recently, scientists had begun to take it seriously too.

From these two sources, a new class of people had emerged. Flowing in different streams from the worlds of science, the New Age, the hippies, the world of computer technology. Pooling together in a lake that grows into an inland sea.

Call them the tech lords. They have one aim, and they have had that aim from the very beginning. Everything else is secondary to it, and serves its purpose.

They are here to build the great mind.

Now the project is alive, and it seems like destiny. It seems, in fact, like the entire purpose of humanity. Maybe a god made us for this purpose: to create new life on Earth. Or maybe we evolved the ability to summon up the next phase in life’s long and strange journey. Either way: could this be our destiny? To replace ourselves? To supersede our own kind, through our own will, our own power?

Maybe the time has come.

But data is needed. Raw information. To create a digital human, a robotic human, a cyborg, a great mind: this is not an easy task. Such a being would need to be trained, modelled, on something pre-existing. When the God of the Bible wanted to create human life, he took up soil from the ground and breathed on it. Even His breath alone was not enough.

What is our soil?

Where is the raw material?

The answer, suddenly, seems obvious. Look around: there are eight billion walking pieces of training data right here. If we want to build a great mind, if we want to create a post-human race greater than humans ever were, then we must we start with the humans. Any machine we build must be built around them, as a house is built around a timber frame.

They are the seed. They are the soil.

They are the matter we will breathe on.

We will train it on them.

But how do we draw what we need from them? How do we corral them into one place and have them offer up their essence? Surely this is impossible. And yet, to build the great mind, they must give us everything. Their feelings, their opinions. Their political prejudices, their deepest fears and neuroses. They must write us stories and paint us pictures. We must gather together all their books, their stories, their paintings and carvings, right from the beginning.

We need all their works of science – all the papers and experimental results. We need all their works of art – the great novels and the poetry. We need archaeology, history, theology. We need to photograph the very geography and geology of the planet. We need to map every canyon and crevice.

We need the depths of the heart and the mind. We need every impulse and desire, every feeling and passion. We need the genome.

We must feed it all in.

We need the people to tell us everything. We need them to tell us every day, in a continual flowing stream. We need them to react to our prompts. We need them to help the great mind grow, without even knowing they are doing it.

We need to harvest them, like a ripe field.

We need them to help us replace them.

Surely this is impossible.

Unless …

— Paul Kingsnorth

Purple Mountains

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6CtxkCmcsiw&list=PLP1lC0FnuI0J0ry7MUbddzVBOa1SnxOAZ

When I consider how my light is spent

— Milton, Sonnet 19

‘I started writing because no one had yet given me the words I needed. So I wrote them myself.’

Credo

Astray 21

Every day without work is a day of judgement. No money made, nothing proved. Who are these writers who read and write for hours a day without feeling guilty? Who pays the mortgage while they sit and refine their sentences? I miss my mother, though most mornings her old sayings still know where to find me: pull yourself together! Take some responsibility! You know our money won’t last you the rest of your life, don’t you? Why are you wasting your time in church?

LinkedIn job spam beeps in my inbox. Marketing executive. Content strategist. Brand storyteller. Customer success. Business development. I tailor my CV. I send it to universities, agencies, charities, shops with no joy. I join the council’s temp-job database. I don’t get the cleaning jobs. I go into a recruitment office and the man says I’m the third guy today to come in saying the same about AI. He says there’s an admin job available with a business in Hellesdon. Nine to five. But it’s really low-level, he says, you’re over-qualified. I could do that, I say, and straight away feel myself squirming out of it.

I’ve avoided working near other people for twenty-five years. The ones who sent me work and paid me were names in inboxes. I never spoke to them and don’t know where they are now. It’s my own fault, I think. I was never proactive. I was behind the curve. I didn’t pivot in time. I didn’t learn new skills, never networked.

You thought it would last. Now they’ve all moved on. It’s a fast-moving world after all, you should have known that from all the business texts you translated and from how quickly the industry was being automated.

On the way to the pool near the office buildings I pass corporate people wearing lanyards and wonder how they do it. What are all these jobs and how did they get them? How do they bear the same place and people day after day? They seem pretty happy when they talk to each other. Are they acting? When I overhear the men in the locker room talking about their careers and families, I admire them. But surely we were made for something more?

The Crossing